This world, universe, existence, really is all about love. And God loves us more than we can describe or show - though, some of us really just don't see it.
So if you are someone who thinks this love would be awesome if real, then I invite you to give up looking for it, and surrender to it. Allow Gods love, and His spirit to take over your life. Doing battle, or trying to be good enough to merit His love has never really worked.