Oh... I've had my ambitions, fame... wealth... even service. Then I went to college, and over the years certainly felt the call to pastoral ministry.
But even here, ambitions abound.
I've wanted to be the best youth pastor, with the most unique ministry that converted everyone to a life of service the moment they entered through the door. I've watched the fastest growing churches and tried to put my own twist on them. I've tried to be cool, spiritual, good looking, fast, in shape, good father, good husband, prayerful, great leader, inspirational - etc etc etc...
Right now though, my ambitions are truly different. Perhaps I'm growing up. Or perhaps I'm at my wits end. (Perhaps these are the same things).
I want to live my call. For I believe God can do far more with my life than I ever could.
By the way - I've thought all along I've been doing just this. Here's praying it's truly different this time.